i came home looking for my mp3 player with the ear plug, but what i found was an empty mp3 protector. even my warranty (receipt) for purchasing the damn mp3 player was missing from the pouch (protector). #$%#$%^%$^$ i am so pissed. why everytime when i came home after i’m away for a while, my things just go missing. i hate this ! its not the first time, and i’m not even informed for ‘lending’ ppl things. well, i think they think i’m the youngest and i have no reason to reject any of their borrowing request. so eventually, they just take as they wish without letting me know. This is not the first time!! i’m so angry now.. i feel like waking my sis up just for the mp3 player, or maybe i should just watch anime at this hour with the speakers on, since she make me have no ear plug to watch my anime with. i think she is the one who took my mp3 player. because she usually will want to just abandon the pouch (btw its the original creative mp3 pouch, black, it is suppose to look classy) because she just dont like these stuffs. urgh… i just want to vent my anger for a while before i ravage her bags for my mp3 player

I think i shd be content with the amount of good friends i have who really appreciate what i did for them. I also appreciate what they have done for me too.

Friends like Catherine, Anting and Cheanchia (although we now seldom meet because we are too busy to) have add so much meaning to my life. And my internet friends, who are always there for me whenever i ’sprung’ at them with the occasional “Bleh”, “hey”, been very nice to me over internet games. Thanks to many friends, who ever considered me as a valued friend. For accepting who i am.

I should not care about people who tries to hurt or harm me, nor take their words seriously, because i simply should not value any of their comments since they do not appreciate who i am.

Well, if you ask, why the sudden talk about friendships? there’s no particular incident or what that happened at least for the past few weeks. And nono, its not about the misunderstanding my good friend have on me. that was history. It’s just that i am upset at how people make unfair critisms on others, especially on friends.

The real reason why it link me to talk about friendship, is because i just talked with my mum. And i realised how people critised joanne peh or fann wong, base on how they act or style their hair. It is so unfair. Although i do not have any special liking for fann, i recorgnise her efforts and her hardwork trying her best in her job. Notice i use the word “job” instead of “act” because acting is her job. Just like you and me, trying to get good results. If you were to say that you get good results is not to show off/brag, then its the same for her. She wants to do well in her job not because she want to work very hard, sleep much lesser per day, show off and get critised in return. How people style their hair is also what they want or “their job requirement”. Just because joanne peh has a hair cut short, it unfair to critise her for acting boyish -.-, or “refuse to keep long hair”. It is most probable that she is required to cut a short hair for a role, or its the style the company wants her to portray.

I get very annoyed just now when my mum keep rattle at how bad their acting is. How unfair. Tell me, you like to be told that you are very lousy and bad in your job? No way! In the same way, i should have told her “mum, do you notice how bad you did your housechores, how slow you are…”. Won’t it be better if i just say, “i suggest you use this washing machine which can do the job faster”, or “mum, i think you should ____ instead so that it will be cleaner”. Ok lets see it in the other way. Instead of saying “shes bad at acting, she haolian, dunno how she choose hairstyle-choose until so ugly”, lets try “i think she have a lot more room for improvement.”, “she should try on a different hairstyle, PERHAPS it look better on her”. It sounded so much pleasant isnt it? i feel so bad for them when they, as celebrities, have to take on so much critisms for what they are. It would be better if those critisms were put in a “encouraging” manner.

Ok, lets get to the friendship thing. If one seriously think that a person, is really bad in the personality, he/she should just put it in a nice manner. E.g. if the person is too direct. use “I think she should learn to be less blunt”. don’t backstab pls! i hate backstabing. so un-nice. Or simply, dont comment at all. keep all to yourself. If you really hope that things don’t recur, just tell the person nicely, (ok, provided she/he will not be very angry). Somehow, the same critism can sound very nice or very cruel depending how the person put across, or to whom the person tell it to. Telling directly to the person causes less harm of cause. If the person tells it to everybody how bad a person is, and if that word or sentence reaches to me. I most probably will interpret it this way, ” the victim of the scandals is not so bad. In fact, the worse person is the person who spread it”. Get it? My english is so poor. i admit i might not be a person good in position to say this kind of things to educate people. Its just my 2 cents worth and how i think the world can be a better place.

If no one ever bothers to be a little fair to others, or at least to me, i have no point in living. can go die ler… then the person who did words of injustice to me, will be the murderer after i suicide! (sorry this sentence is nonsense..)

Another point to note, if a person don’t say that he/she cherish you as a friend, it does not mean he/she do not cherish you. If a person is a little too harsh to you, correcting your mistakes etc, it also doesnt mean he/she do not like you. (Just like parents are harsh to their kids for their own good).Use your heart to listen~ If one likes to anyhow interpret a person + interpret wrongly, it means that the person is a bad interpreter and a bad friend to have So please slap me, if i ever get upset because of this sort of person, wake me up and remind me not to get upset over unreasonable friends.

Hee, during tonite’s dinner, mum actually planned tat on her count of 3.. all of us (only my 2 of my brothers and me) should greet my dad “lao ba~ shen ri kuai le” (dad, happy birthday). Feel its rather awkward. this morning, i told dad that i have a updated street directory. I bought few days ago at nus’s arts coop when i saw it has free cd-rom version of street directory and a geocoded map. 2 reasons why a “car-less” person like me decided to buy a copy of it: my dad had actually asked me a few times whether i happen to have a copy of a digital street directory in my com, and recently, i am working on a GIS (geographic information system) project that needs a Singapore map. In the end, i bought it for about 11 bucks.

Back to the point, i told dad i bought the street directory that comes wif a digital cd-rom(if not remember wrongly, he asked me again if i have digital street directory). And i told him i shared the cost of the street directory with my friend for project. A little lie here regarding the money, i dun wan let him know i actually paid the whole sum of it for some strange reasons. So i said, after im done with the project i would give him the street directory. LOL, since today is his birthday, it seems like i had just given my dad STREET DIRECTORY 2005 for his birthday! =X

Alright, anyway yday was deciding to post something frightening but the router was down the whole nite. Anyway, i was clearing my room becos i dun wan my dad to keep nagging that the room being messy (its his birthday the nxt day also..). then i was vacuuming the floor… the vacuum was blasting loudly..

then i heard a noise from behind.

i turned..

its my dad..

“AHHhhhhAHHHHHHHhhhh!!!!!” i screamed.

“Wah lau..no medicine to cure (direct translation from hokkien)!” my dad said. (i was still wondering what he meant by this.. any1 has a clue?)

why am i so retarded, in my mind i already know someone talked to me, thats y i turned to face the back… its not like the vacuum can talk. Then, i see my dad, i know its him and not some weird stuffs. but somehow, my brain took so long to register that its my dad. n i let out a horrifying scream.. -.-” dumb de… i was apparently, yet dumbly frightened by my dad’s “sudden” appearance. oh no… worse is.. i even sobbed lightly after it happened…

what a dumb reaction.. -.-”

okie. the updates u r looking for, after many many many days.

Alrite a seemingly ’short’ updates:

1. had lotsa reports, even had 3 reports to rush in one go on a single day. stupid dumb science cources like chemistry nv fails to cramp in silly lengthy reports as assignments in our CA.. n worse.. the percentage of the reports counted to our CA marks is getting lower n lower as every semester passed (even tho the efforts put in are similar or higher sometimes).

For those who even thought of getting into chemistry in nus, DUN even put it in ur choice unless u seriously have some nice kaki who will ‘lend’ u their answers or haf seniors lab report to copy.. u will have 3 hrs of lab work each week in ur first yr + silly full lab reports per week, 7 hrs of lab work in 2nd yr + silly full lab report (1 or 2) per week.. n the most dreadful yr.. 9hrs of lab work in 3rd yr.. which shall means working on expt at 8-5?! i doubt i ever wan to advance to 3rd yr

2. TESTS. i hate tests becos i knoe i wun study for it n would definitely flunk them. jus had a test on thurs, ORGANIC CHEMISTRY which i will definitely fail it. it was so difficult that even if i peep at the ans from those-sitting-in-front of me, i still cant do it. dang~ all i saw was blank unfilled papers everywhere. not even a clue on how to do those synthesis thing. T_T errr nvm tat.. forget it.. wateva..

3. my dear dear jus had a car accident on friday T.T. Friday wasnt a good day after all even without the 13th. as usual, my dear was getting a free lift from a fren, joe, to sch. however, they bang the car into a ang-moh’s car. i tink joe’s reaction was so slow that it sped over wifout braking n cause a huge impact (after hitting n braking) tat my dear spills the soya milk all over him (nah tat’s nt the point). he banged his head on the windscreen n it shattered. the strange thing is except for some red lumps on his head, there’s no bleeding! his shaolin’s tie-tou-gong finally was put into good use thank god

i accompanied my dear to the doctor. the doctor recommended him to go for an x-ray near ang mo kio. so we went on saturday for the x-ray. it costed 120 bucks T_T, n i had to foot the bill on behalf of my dear cos he doesnt had tat much wif him. *waiting for a payback from joe as he promised to pay for my dear’s medical fees.

after my car accident and my dear’s, i realised safety belt is really impt! so guys dun forget to put on ur safety belt once u r in the car, immediately.